hey! with school starting in two weeks, it’s time to review my summer bucket list and see if i actually did any of the things i set out to do.
(key: ✅ means i reaches my goal, ❌ means i failed, and 🔵 means i partially did it.)
1) explore ✅
i think i got in a good amount of exploring this summer. i went to the dam down the road a few times to fish, pick up trash, and just get away from home. and i walked all over the camp i worked at and found some new areas, like the high ropes course, more remote campsites, and an animal graveyard.
2) read 15 books ✅
i read 18 books this summer! my favorites were the gentleman’s guide to vice and virtue by mackenzi lee and i am princess x by cherie priest, but you can see all of them by friending me on goodreads.
3) nail my back handsprings ❌
because of how often i was at camp, i had to quit gymnastics for the summer. since i don’t trust myself enough to practice back handsprings without a spotter, i didn’t get anywhere near to accomplishing this. that’s ok, though — i’m hoping to rejoin my gymnastics class in the autumn, and i’ll keep working on my handsprings then.
4) vbs 🔵
vacation bible school was . . . wild. i had five little boys, including two sets of brothers (who were also cousins). they were good the first day, but then they got out of hand. one kid wouldn’t stop crab walking and punched me in the chin and none of them would listen to me. i got to skip the last two days for band camp, and i am so thankful for that, because i don’t think i would have made it.
(i’m giving this one a partial because i wasn’t there all week.)
5) hang out with friends 🔵
i actually didn’t see my friends much this summer. we were all just really busy. one was at a ballet intensive in the city for a month, and i only saw her once, when i went with her family to see her final performance.
but i did make a few new friends at camp and spent several weeks working with them. my bff izzy came to ahg camp with me, too.
6) earn 2 ahg badges ✅
i actually got a few more than i was hoping for. gardening & plant science, nature & wildlife, and boating safety are ones that i’ve completely finished, and i’ve almost earned creative crafts, pen & paper arts, and swimming thanks to camp.
7) go to camp ✅
i spent three weeks at camp this year (i was on staff for two weeks, and a camper for one) and had the best time of my life. so much crazy, fun stuff happened, and i’ll have to make a separate post about my experience, but there was never a dull day.
8) garden 🔵
because of my insane schedule, i didn’t get to tend to my garden very much. but it rained so much that my plants survived anyway. it sucks that i didn’t get to enjoy my flowers, though. and while everything is still alive, it’s totally overgrown, so it’s not even that nice to look at.
9) get a tan ✅
i have visible tan lines for once in my life?? amazing. really, my skin is only darker because i didn’t use sunscreen at camp and got burned at the waterfront, but i think it still counts.
10) go swimming ✅
i swam in the river by my house a few times, went tubing, jumped into a pool with all my clothes on while at camp victory, hiked to a swimming hole, and swam everyday at ahg camp for the boating badge and waterfront survival/lifesaving class.
so i completed six of my goals, sort of did three, and only failed one. i’m usually rather horrible at keeping up with the goals i set for myself, so i’m actually sort of proud of this.
how was your summer? are you ready to go back to school? let me know in the comments.
i spent the last week working at summer camp, so that’s why i haven’t been posting. i think i’ll be able to get lots of content out of my camp experience, though, because it’s been . . . wild. so keep an eye out for that, i guess.
it’s been awhile since i posted more answers to my q&a (coughit’sbeenlikeeightmonthscough), so that’s what i’m doing today. enjoy! :)
i would like to use my art to help others feel less alone. maybe i’ll be able to draw or write something so honest that people will realize they’re not the only one to feel that way.
having a job where i can make an impact on someone’s life seems good, too. like a youth group leader or camp counselor or something.
writing or reading?
i get writing and/or reading slumps quite often, so my answer would depend on if i’m in one of those at the moment. but right now, i’ll say writing. i’ve been writing down lots of memories and journal entries and poems recently.
drawing/painting or photography?
same thing as the last question. i get lots of hobby-related slumps. i’ll go with art for now, because it’s relaxing, i can create something beautiful out of nothing, and i have some great art supplies.
favorite book ever?
(i manage to come up with a new favorite book every time i get this question.)
i’m going to say tiger lily by jodi lynn anderson. it’s a peter pan retelling from tiger lily’s point of view and it broke my heart the first time i read it. it’s heavy and touching and, despite being set in neverland, so real.
your favorite word?
it might not be my favorite word ever, but i really like “litost.” it means “a state of torment created by the sudden sight of one’s own misery.” “ethereal” is important, too, for personal reasons that i’m not sure how to explain.
the first five things you think when you hear your own name?
(for anyone who doesn’t know, my real name is loren, not apollo.)
1) how everyone pronounces it “lauren” unless they know me well. :’)
2) it means “laurels and victory,” which is kind of funny because i’m a loser.
3) this one girl (also named loren) at camp two years ago who got high off of bug spray.
4) my soccer coach made us all pick a food that starts with the same letter as our name, to make it easier to remember who’s who. my food was linguini.
the first five things you think when you hear MY name?
1) i know a girl named grace and apparently she has a golf cart??? i’m jealous.
2) one of my youth group leaders (also named grace) always brings really good snacks to bible study.
3) this super sweet girl who helped me during one of the worst days of my life. her middle name is grace, i’m pretty sure.
4) a girl at my church was telling me about her friend who is basically the exact same person as me. we like the same music, have the same hobbies, share a zodiac sign, etc. she moved before i got to meet her, but i follow her on social media, where she goes by the name grace.
5) and i think of you, of course, sweetheart. :)
what would you pick, to be able to fly, or to breath underwater?
breathing underwater, i think. in my head, it seems like chilling underwater would be really peaceful and exciting. but i’d probably hate it in real life because i’d be afraid of drowning.
what’s your favorite tv show?
i don’t particularly like watching tv, because i get bored too quickly. but two shows that i really like are gravity falls and over the garden wall. they’re both cartoons with weird elements mixed in. i’ve also been watching the office and parks & rec, and i’m enjoying those a lot.
what’s your favorite day of the week?
at the moment, i’m looking forward to sunday, because that’s when i leave for my second week of camp. i don’t usually like sundays, though. i’m not a fan of getting up for church, and something about them makes me feel sad and tired.
do you like seeing movies in the theater, or at home?
i never go to movie theaters unless i’m going with friends or i’m on vacation. but i prefer watching movies at home anyway. i can wrap myself up in blankets and have free snacks and draw while the movie plays.
what’s one food you will never get tired of?
peanut butter. it goes well with everything.
popsicles or ice cream?
one time i had a popsicle, and the joke on the stick was “what is it called when a bunch of raspberries get together and make music? a jam session.” and i swear, i had never been more glad to be alive than when everyone groaned at that joke.
but i like ice cream better. there are more flavors and you can use toppings and it’s not as sticky.
if you where a demigod, who would be your godly parent?
the quizzes i’ve taken say apollo. that makes ense. he’s supposed to be the god of archery, healing, and poetry, right? that fits me. and i already go by the name apollo online.
if you where an elf in keeper, what ability would you want to manifest?
being a shade would be pretty sweet, i think. but i took a quiz and got inflictor, which would be ok as long as i could make people feel happy and safe.
if you were a dragon, what color would your scales be? (PURPLE!!)
i’d hope for silver or maroon.
what’s your favorite video game?
the legend of zelda series is really great, i love the characters and lore and music. i also really like this ds game that my brother has called fantasy life, and skyrim, of course.
do you have any left handers in your family?
just one of my uncles, i believe.
have you read lodestar yet? what did you think of it?
i have read lodestar, my mom bought it for me because i won nanowrimo last year. i don’t exactly remember what it was about (haha oops), but it’s the keeper of the lost cities, so i’m sure it was incredible.
what do you think the difference is between a fairy and a pixie?
pixies are the mischievous ones, and they all have pixie cuts. fairies are the ones that sing to flowers or whatever.
about an inch past my shoulders. i’ve had long hair for most of my life, but i thought i’d try something new this year.
skirts or shorts?
shorts, absolutely. the only time i wear skirts is if it’s for a costume. shorts are just much more comfortable to me.
elves or hobbits?
as much as i love the hobbits, the elves clearly have it better. they’re tall, they can sing, they’re beautiful, they have glorious hair, they’ve got cool names, and did i mention that they’re tall? because that bit is important.
i really love turtles. i want to have one as a pet and name it billie joe armstrong, like the lead singer of green day. but none of the pet stores in my area sell turtles anymore and apparently it’s illegal to keep a turtle you find in the wild.
i bought combat boots last autumn and they’re pretty much the only shoes i wear. and they have pink flowers printed on the inside, so that’s cool. but i also adore the beat up converse that i’ve had for years. they have a moon drawn on the toe.
winter or summer?
winter, i think. i like that i can wear boots and hoodies and beanies, and how much nicer hot showers feel, and stepping outside and seeing your breath puff up in front of you. this summer might change my opinion, though, because of how much time i’ve been spending at camp.
it’s snowing right now, i wish it was summer. but when the summer rolls around, i wish i was freezing. (cough it out // the front bottoms)
favorite star wars character?
poe. oh my gosh i love him so much.
favorite dessert and lunch?
cereal for both. i don’t care what time of day it is, i will always be down for having cereal. specifically honey bunches of oats in a tea cup with no milk. that’s strange but i don’t really care.
hang on, i just made myself hungry. i’ll go get some cereal and then come back and finish this post.
i hope you guys enjoyed this! maybe you learned that we have something in common, or that i’m weirder than you thought. please don’t come after me for not putting milk in my cereal.
a bunch of exciting stuff has been going on in my life recently, and i thought i’d share everything with you guys by dumping it into one post.
– my best friend izzy and i spent the first weekend of june being counselors at camp victory. every year, our church takes their after school program up to the camp to have fun and learn more about God. we were put in a cabin with the elementary school girls, but we were primarily assisting the younger ones. izzy’s family has been helping for years, but this was my first time. i sort of hated it, but i know i’ll go again next year if i get the chance.
– i carried so many girls on my back that i have bruises on my hips from their legs.
– it rained pretty much nonstop. there were about two hours on saturday when it wasn’t raining and we got to play games outside, but it was pouring the rest of the time.
– one of those games involved running around with a dead octopus. izzy got a bit too into it and ripped off a tentacle.
– they made us do zumba every morning. that was . . . something.
– i got into the pool with izzy when i was fully clothed. it was fun and all, but i didn’t bring enough dry clothes, and the t-shirt i was wearing at the time was white and kind of thin. still, i’m glad she convinced me to do it.
– the girls in our cabin decided that our group would be named the “glitter star bears.” we had to do a cheer about it at every meal and it was sort of awful.
– we had a movie night on saturday, and someone told me we were watching shrek, so i was naturally very excited. they lied, though, and we were really watching monsters university. don’t get me wrong, i love that movie, but i had my heart set on shrek.
– i slept in the leaders’ cabin the last night because our girls were so loud and stayed up really late. sadly, i didn’t sleep any better up there, and i ended up getting about four hours of sleep over the whole weekend. also, there were roaches in the cabin and a snake in the bathroom. :)
– my brother was at a karate tournament the same weekend i was at camp. he did a roundoff backflip during his first kata, landed wrong, and ended up breaking his foot and injuring his knee. but he got back up, completed the kata, and got second place. his foot was broken in three places, i think, and he had surgery on monday to fix it.
– i found out last week that i’m old enough to work at my summer camp as a counselor in training! since i’m a girl and it’s a boy scout camp, i didn’t think it was likely that i would be accepted, but somehow i was. i’m ridiculously excited for this, because i’ve wanted to work at camp since i first went there in 2016.
getting ready for camp has taken a lot of work. i had to complete three online courses, do a bunch of paperwork, and buy a venture scouts uniform (unfortunately, the guy that ordered it got the wrong size). on top of all that, i’m leaving today for a training session at the camp and i won’t be back until friday night.
– a few months ago, my math teacher saw me drawing in class and asked me to make a new mathematics-themed poster for him. i sort of forgot about it until the last two weeks of school, so i had to rush to get it done. i worked on it for nine hours (most of which was probably organizing art supplies on the table), but i finished it in time. my favorite part is the blue jay, i think i did a good job coloring it in.
– this is maybe less important than the others, but i’ve heard that love, simon is being put on netflix this month, and i am so excited to watch it again. i love the soundtrack, i love the book it’s based on, and i am so ready to cry at the ending again. happy pride month, by the way! 🌈
– a few people have been asking if i’m going to do cwwc again this year. i’m sorry to say it, but i won’t be. i just have too much planned this summer, so i think it’s unlikely that i’ll have an entire month that i can dedicate to it. sorry!
i’ve wanted to do a room tour for ages, but my bedroom has always been kind of mess. so over the past few months, i’ve slowly been getting my room to where i want it: i finished painting my bed, i hung up the tapestry i got in d.c., i bought accessories, etc. and i’m happy to say that my room is finally pretty enough to share.
well, the real reason this post took so long to make is that i didn’t want to clean. but i was on a productivity kick this week and swept, washed my sheets, watered all my plants, put away my clothes, and wiped (some of) the watercolor stains off my desk. i had to take the pictures for this before my room returned to it’s natural state (aka a disaster), because it’s probably never going to be this clean again.
i love seeing my friends’ rooms for the first time, because i feel like it’s a reflection of who they are. for example, my brother’s room has looked like a dump for the past five years, which perfectly displays his apathetic personality. my best friend’s room is covered in her own artwork. so i thought letting you guys see what my room looks like would help you get to know me better or something.
also, i’m so sorry about the quality of these pictures. the lighting in my room is always horrible, and this is the best i could do.
sorry for getting sidetracked. let’s get into it, i guess.
here it is! :)
my room has been all different shades of ugly in the past, such as dark blue, pale yellow, and lime green, and now it’s back to blue with white and orange accents. the walls are actually two different colors: the one behind my desk is a slightly lighter blue than the others.
here’s a mirror i “borrowed” from my brother years ago and never gave back!
to the right of my mirror is my dresser and dragon tapestry. i don’t like the dresser that much because it doesn’t match the rest of my furniture, but i think it’s special to my mom because she won’t let me get rid of it.
my dresser is sort of where weird knickknacks go to die. there are a bunch of little trinkets on it that i don’t know where else to put.
i have a glass bowl with my favorite lip balms, a piece of petrified wood that i got for valentine’s day last year, some amethyst, and a 10th doctor funko pop that was a christmas present from my brother.
a cactus made out of rocks, some adorable clay animals that megan made, and a tiny music box that plays the song somewhere over the rainbow.
a wormaid from megan, an octopus from allison, a mermaid figurine, and more amethyst.
i usually have some flowers in my room. the current ones are poppies and bachelors buttons.
here’s my favorite part of my room: my desk area. i got the desk from my neighbor years ago and keep painting it different colors to match my room.
i keep some art supplies in a custom mug i got for christmas.
i have an embroidered twenty one pilots quote, an artist mannequin, more flowers, and a salt lamp. apparently salt lamps are supposed to help with anxiety, but i don’t think mine works.
my desk drawers are always messy, especially the bottom one. it’s stuffed with letters and old journals and also some 3ds games. i think my whole life story could be discovered from the contents of that drawer.
the next drawer up is where my sketchbooks, artist trading cards, and drawing books live.
i keep my markers/pens/colored pencils in the top drawer. this drawer used to contains tons and tons of crayons. i’m not sure why.
above the desk is a strand of lights! i’ve hung special odds and ends from the lower section.
there are some paint swatches and a love, simon movie ticket, which i talked about in my latest art post.
a pressed flower crown from my last day of co-op and a sketch from a nature journaling class.
i was trying to figure out how to play the end of all things // panic! at the disco on the ukulele and came up with this.
a weird picture i cut out of a magazine and a paper chain.
my closet is on the other side of the room. there are lots of odd things in there, like a flag from summer camp that reads “semper ubi sub ubi,” (“always wear underwear” in latin) shinguards that haven’t been washed in five seasons, a sort of shrine to one of my dead cats, and maybe even an entire person. who really knows.
beside the closet is my loft bed. it was originally purple, but i painted it white last christmas. or started painting it, anyway. it didn’t actually get finished until a few days ago.
i made my bed for the first time in years to take this picture. it’s extremely hard to make your bed when it’s so far off the ground.
beneath my bed is my reading corner. it’s just a costco dog bed with a body pillow bent around it, but it’s very comfortable. my three favorite stuffed animals live there, who are creatively named kitty and pink bunny. i don’t think i ever named the dog.
my new bookshelf is also under my bed. my parents helped me make it, and i painted the whole thing. unfortunately, i’ve already filled it up, so we’ll have to make another one soon.
i can reach the top of the bookshelf from my bed, so i keep a journal, pen, and flashlight there. that way, i can easily get to some distractions when it’s late and i still haven’t gone to sleep.
my ever growing plant collection takes up one of my windowsills. i’m surprised that they’ve stayed alive this long.
my other windowsill is home to a wooden L (a christmas present from kelsie), a party favor from my friend izzy, and a soccer trophy from elementary school. maybe it’s a dumb thing to keep, since my team didn’t actually win anything, but it’s from the coach who made me fall in love with the sport, so it’s special.
there are two little hooks beside my windows that i hang my favorite necklaces from.
this isn’t super important, but look at how cool my light is! it casts a pretty pattern on the ceiling and makes me feel like i’m on a pirate ship.
so that’s my bedroom! i hope you enjoyed the tour. :)
there’s an empty piece of wall beneath the windows, and i might turn it into one of those picture walls that you see everywhere on tumblr. i’ll definitely show you guys if i ever get around to doing that.
school ends for me in about two weeks, so i thought it was an appropriate time to post this. i’ve been joking about how this is my last summer of freedom before i go to public school full time, but i guess it’s actually true. i’m going to try and have fun this summer, so i made a list of ten things i want to do over the next few months.
when i go back to school, i’ll make another post about this to see how close i got to accomplishing all my goals.
there’s an old dam down the road that’s covered in graffiti. it’s got a river on one side and forest on the other, and i think that’s where i’m going to be exploring this summer. i’ve only been there twice so far; the first time i biked and checked out the graffiti, and the second time i went fishing. and my family just bought a bunch of inner tubes, so hopefully i can get a friend to head down there and go tubing with me.
2) read 15 books
i was originally planning on reading 100 books this year, but i’m way behind on that, as i can’t seem to concentrate on anything. reading even 15 books in a few months sounds kind of difficult for me, but i’m still going to try.
3) nail my back handsprings
one of my gymnastics coaches was helping me with back handsprings one day, and she told me i twist to the left when i do them. the same thing happens when i do bridges or back walkovers. but i think that if i can straighten them out, i’ll be able to do them by myself.
i think the theme my church picked for this year’s vacation bible school is “road rally,” or something like that. i’ve already signed up to be a crew leader, hopefully for elementary school kids. izzy tells me that our age group is only allowed to work with preschoolers, but we’ll see.
5) hang out with friends
since my friends all go to different schools, i don’t get to see them that often. in fact, the only friend i’ve hung out with regularly since school started is izzy, who i see 3-5 days a week. i miss my friends and i want to have another summer with them before i go to public school, my schedule gets crazy, and we drift apart.
6) earn 2 ahg badges
(ahg is my scouting group, for those who don’t know.) i’ve almost completed the gardening and plant science badge, and after i get that i think i’ll work on nature & wildlife. doing badge requirements is sort of my go-to boredom buster, and i’m trying to see how many i can earn before i age out of ahg (i currently have about ¼ of all the available badges).
7) go to camp
going to ahg camp with my best friend is always the highlight of my summer. i’m excited to see my camp friends again, swim in the lake, go to the shooting range, and hopefully buy a rainbow knife that i couldn’t get last time because the staff heard me talking about murder with izzy. :)
i’m actually going to two summer camps with her. the other one is a weekend camp at beginning of june, and we’re going to be counselors.
i got my garden planted a few days ago, so i’ve already kind of done this one? i have some herbs, mint, daises, aloe, a succulent, primroses, and some little flowers that i don’t know the names of. i’ve also been growing cacti from seeds, and hopefully i’ll be able to keep them alive.
9) get a tan
i currently have a slight shinguard tan from soccer, and it’s only going to get worse as the season goes on. for anyone who isn’t familiar with what a shinguard tan is, it means my thighs and calves are pale, and just my knee is tan. the only way to fix it is to go outside for something other than pratice/games, which i will unfortunately do if i want to look less like a zebra.
10) go swimming
my family doesn’t actually go swimming that much, but since i just got two new swimsuits, we kind of have to. one is a maroon one-piece with a kind of crisscross thing on the chest, and the other is a black bikini with a bunch of different colored stripes. i did a really bad job explaining them, but they’re very cute.
so that’s my plan for the summer! it’s unlikely that i’ll actually do everything on my list, but i’m still going to try.
let me know in the comments what you’re looking forward to doing over the summer!
. . . and run away from you for good! (you don’t love me like you should // hey violet)
one of my favorite things to do downtown is to look at the stickers and graffiti plastered on walls and light poles. lately, i’ve been bringing my camera every time i get a chance to go, and i’ve been photographing the more interesting street art. i have enough to share now, so here goes.
no masters, no slaves is from a song by the varukers. by the way, i only know this because i looked it up, since i don’t know enough about 80’s hardcore punk bands to just have that fact ready to go.
the dog/fox thing is adorable, but those wacked faces are the real reason i took this shot.
hey look, it’s my name! and that thing to the left of the signature looks like a sad, lumpy batman in his old age. sorry, i don’t have a great picture of it. :/
i hope whoever did you wrong has trouble sleeping at night.
this reminds me of the illuminati. i don’t necessarily believe that it still exists, but if it does, i hope i’ll be allowed to join.
our vandals are so nice?? look at that. proper spelling and grammar, and they even said thank you.
help me find this person’s social media. i want to follow them.
the sign mentioned in my prose inspired by p!atd’s song hurricane.
a dynamic café in the court square. it doesn’t look like this anymore — the blue is green, some of the murals have been covered, and the giant bucket list chalkboard is gone. but it still makes me happy to see the art whenever i walk by.
the last time i was downtown, a group of people were giving the café a makeover. i can’t wait to see what it looks like when it’s done.
this is the kind of art i want to create. i’ve been to plenty of art galleries with my mum, and i feel like art that’s displayed behind glass doesn’t get admired enough. but with murals, you can run your hands over the brushstrokes and stare up at this giant splash of color in the midst of a buzzing city. and i think that more people would get to see the art, because when you find a mural, you generally take a picture in front of it to show your friends. idk, i just hope i get a chance to make art like this someday.
this isn’t downtown, it’s actually by a river near my house. but i like it and didn’t know when else i would get to share it.
there are a few more murals downtown that i don’t have pictures of, like a color block one with the outline of a woman’s face, a fortune teller leaning over a crystal ball, an abstract horse, a nervous rock star, and more that i haven’t found yet but that i know are there.
a lot of people think graffiti is ugly and disrespectful, and i guess some of it is. but as long as it’s not super vulgar or slapped across the front of a fancy building, i think it’s fascinating and definitely a form of art.